Running around naked at the apartment coz my roommates are gone for the weekend.

Hell yeah! 

day two of positive vibes

Ok. So today was shit! Big time! But I want to start to see things positive… 

I’m on my own again. So I have more time for myself.. to read or paint or meet some friends. Which is good. I dont have to worry about anybody else. Like a partner.. his needs or anything. haha

But today started good. The sun was shining.. it was warm.. and I had my english exam which turned out great. 

Well.. the best part about this day was the weather and my way to the trainstation this morning. I love to be in the city while it wakes up, u know. 

so.. that’s it. lame but ok.. I’m tired. 

Day one of positive vibes

So, my life is starting to fall apart. Alll my future plans seem very likely to not work out like I planned them to. But anyways.. now I feel like I should even more embrace the good, the positive things which happen to me.. or just happen to be. 

Thanks to ” der verbotenen Frucht ” I will start to write a text about positive stuff for at least one week. He asked me why my blog seems to be so depressing and why I don’t just start to see things positive and maybe then I can start to really live positive.

Ok. So here it goes. 

Today really didn’t seem to end good for me but then I just thought I have to go outside… for a walk or something. I asked some people if they wanna join me.. but, oh what a surprise, they didn’t want to. I heard that there would be a concert at some place I used to go very often.. so I figured I could go there. Even if it looked like I had to go on my own. Nevermind.. I asked one more guy. The one guy. And he said yes. So I picked him up and we went there. The weather was great. Warm. There were people sitting outside of the place. That’s why we just sat there aswell.. drinking some beer and other stuff. And we got into talking. Very open about this and that. Things that we felt like they were needed to be talked about. It felt good. I started to feel comfortable around him again. I really enjoyed it. I wrote something. What I didn’t do in a long time. We finally connected again. That felt really great. So this is my positive thing of the day. It turned out wonderful and I can sleep with a heart full of joy. I could tell more about what was spoken this night and what my thoughts were. But it really doesn’t matter. We felt good together again.. and so did I. About myself and about my life. And allthough maybe my life will not turn out as it was planned. I think maybe it will turn out good anyways. I will find my way.. just as everyone else will find his or her way and place in this world. Things can be though. But no one said life would be easy, right? 

Thank you for this wonderful night out, F.

And all of a sudden I’m depressed again..